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Slowly but surely... [Saturday
February 7th, 2009 at 8:51pm]

My relationship with him... is slowly, but surely dying away.

And as it fades, an old flame has rekindled, along with much of the brilliant sparks that it first came with.

I just want to be next to fuzzy now.
Bang! Bang!



[Thursday
January 29th, 2009 at 12:03am]
It's a cold cold night.

I need someone warm.

To cuddle me.
Bang! Bang!



Why am I still trying... [Sunday
January 4th, 2009 at 11:50am]

I feel like I have to shout out a million different profanities just so I can get this mixture of frustration/anger/disappointment out of my body.

Now that you've started the questioning, they are appearing fast-and-furiously.

And the spots from where they appear are revealing deep cracks and fissures that are rocking my confidence.

Do not regret the damage you've done for they have already been wreaked.

If you ever decide to come back, be prepared to win me back cause I will not just be meekly submitting to you.

And if you think that i've changed, the only reason will be because of you.
 
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[Saturday
December 27th, 2008 at 12:13am]
[ mood | Heartbroken ]

He said to me...

the truth is

 

i really miss you

 

but i dont know whether its becos i miss being in a relationship

 

or its you i really miss
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How reel life parallels real life [Friday
December 26th, 2008 at 12:13am]
She's never made my heart bounce," he sighs. "Do you think it's wrong for someone to marry another person, not because she's the one, but because...she's the only?"
Unsure of how to respond, Ally tells him that "we make so few promises to ourselves as we grow up and one of them is that on our wedding day we'll walk down the aisle with someone we love. Someone who does make our heart bounce, I guess. And there are some promises, Harry, that I feel we just have to keep."

***
But sometimes, if you hold out for everything, you end up with nothing.
Sometimes the worst thing for somebody's heart could be loneliness
And promises we make ourselves when we're kids...stupid anyway.
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Baby, Don't You Break My Heart Slow [Thursday
December 25th, 2008 at 5:13pm]

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken,
Do you say, do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever
I was believing in you

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
Bang! Bang!



Sobering Realizations [Sunday
December 14th, 2008 at 11:03pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I used to be proud of being a die-hard romantic.

Always believed in giving my all and being effusively affectionate, for every relationship (not that i've many).

Now, i think it's damn stupid and naive to think that just being all romantic, affectionate and passionate no-holds barred would solve all problems. It's not that you shouldn't be romantic, affectionate or passionate, but you should never allow yourself to be blinded by it.
People say love is blind. I agree, but do not think it's a good thing. One should never be blind to the problems in a relationship nor to the flaws in your partner. It's naive to think that to be blind to it, it will go away. Instead, it will just fester insidiously till one day it announces its presence in a dramatic eruption. When that happens, it might just be too late to salvage the situation. To further extrapolate on that conclusion, one must see the problems in order to try to solve it or know when to stop trying.

I wished I hadn't been so clueless. Now I can only hope that things are still salvageable.


Bang! Bang!



[Wednesday
December 10th, 2008 at 12:44am]
My world should stop revolving around him.

Instead, the world should be revolving around us.
Bang! Bang!



[Tuesday
December 9th, 2008 at 12:24am]
I miss him so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my mood just totally lifted the instant i got an sms from him. heh.
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[Monday
December 8th, 2008 at 10:36pm]
I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED a holiday.
Bang! Bang!

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